So it’s December. That time of year where the day light doesn’t last long enough but the cold and darkness does. It seems like it takes a massive effect on my mind. I always feel so creative-less, empty, bored. Every winter comes around and I say to myself, if it snows I’m shooting portraits! Well the days it has snowed in the past I wasn’t able to. Makes me so upset. I have all these ideas written down for a snow shoot, yet I’m never able to make it happen. I used to love the winter. Now I dread it like the plague. With everything that has happened in the last few months doesn’t help either. I just keep questioning myself if I should keep going. Keep striving so I won’t have to work a day job. Every December this runs rampant through my head. Sure I have plenty of shoots lined up but damn, am I reaching deep in my mind to find creative ideas. Maybe I just need to get away for a bit. I’ve thought of visiting my aunt or grandma for a week or 2. If I did that I would just bring my d700, 85, and sb800. Put myself out there and put myself into a situation where that’s all I have to work with. Who knows…maybe.
On a positive note however, I am super excited to work with Gina Osbourne and her team at Beauty Marks. She is super talented and can’t wait for this.
Ok no more rambling. Just sitting here bored at work, waiting to delivery car. Don’t worry, I’m not ready to give up just yet.
Chaz's Mind 